Outside

can i unmake this past in my mind

reset it on the path of least anguish

pick up where we left off

those years ago

refuse to let you take our child 

to that place where you neglect him

and then double barrel off into oblivion

on the thin skin of this reality 

from dreams shattered

a body shape of pain 

still pressing on the spattered screen

and from the other side outlined

deforming the mornings 

compressing all anxiety into 

one fine point in memory

even so

allow me to know now there is an exit 

to the outside of outside

though i haven’t yet found the door

you are not there

i hate your ghost 

it is no longer welcome 

in my still beating heart