Scary Personal Writing

Hi everybody.

Since I usually write a poem a day, my poems tend to be a bit shorter as a result of the time constraint, but today I started one that I want to work into something longer. I am about halfway through it now.

The poem I'm working on is intensely personal, and airs some things about myself I struggle with daily as an overweight, atypical man. It's my body. I'm working to change it, but I'm stuck with what I've got while I take the long journey toward making it something I can more comfortably inhabit. Accepting it for what it is in the face of fear of judgment is one thing I haven't allowed myself to do, and that's been the source of a lot of self-loathing and isolation.

I also know I'm not the only with these struggles.

It's partly due to my work with the book The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron that I'm finding the courage to write this poem at all. I don't want to dwell on it and drag it out, but it's something more than just one day of writing can satisfy. You'll have it tomorrow night.

Thanks so very much for reading.

Be good to each other.

~Bacchus